For me personally reawakening to the cosmic pulse occurred in 1997 when I had a massive psychic and spiritual breakthrough.

I became aware of myself as a multidimensional being – compassion, wisdom, joy, and bliss filled peace as all the feminine divine incarnations.

At this point in my life it was an extremely difficult space to embody and come to terms with. As flash back after flashback of memories returned remembering myself in such an intense way was a huge shock. Although it was a very beautiful amazing experience, it was also very frightening taking me to the edge of psychosis. I continually rejected the idea that I could possibly have ever been a divine being and as I put all the memories back together saw the enormity of it all  I did ‘why me’ and broke them up again!

The need for answers took me around to India, to Sai Baba, who had for most of my life guided me through dreams without my awareness of whom and what he was.

I gave up my life as I knew it and surrendered to the process of becoming what these memories demanded of me. Still struggling with ‘why me’ it took several visits to India, and finally a meeting with some amazing ‘normal men’ who had gone through a similar awakening process. This gave me permission to accept the enormity of my divinity and move forward into integrating the memories and awareness that I had been given. Later that connected with group of women around the world who also re-membered enabling me to finally become more at home with this enormous awareness as a ‘normal’ part of myself.

The process took me frequently into an awareness of being all things, and a love so profound that it created an intense yearning to maintain this state at all times.  This in turn drove me deeper and deeper into my own inner knowingness teaching me how to re embrace my multi-dimensional self in all its forms, regaining the space of non-duality, allowing me to embody my own divinity in a much more consistent way.

During this period in India, I also worked with Maharishi Vetathiri who taught and initiated the art of meditating at zero point. He said that ‘all solutions and answers are found at zero point’.  For me it is the gateway to the creative force that we call God, Love, The Absolute, or Source, it is a dynamic and powerful energy. I found that I had always been able to access this part of myself without knowing what it was.

With a greater understanding of what meditation at zero point could achieve I spent regular long periods in meditation at this level of consciousness.  Whilst in India I spent several months healing myself and the archetypal energies that hold the illusionary concepts of separation in place. This work continues day to day moment to moment as I go deeper and deeper into this wonderful illusion.

In coming to understand these truths I found at zero point I was taken to all the heavens and the hells, limbo, purgatory. I was shown the divinity in all these states of being within myself and others.

The process took a huge amount of determination, courage and willingness to delve into the emotional debris held by the programming of separation. It could not have been achieved alone, but with the aid of the internet and modern VOIP systems I have been able to network with others in a similar space. Despite sometimes very difficult challenges I was able to create ‘real’ relationships with men and women around the planet where we able to discuss anything and everything with each other and ‘bring it back to love’.

It was not enough to understand the role of the ‘light’ & ‘dark’ and the divine mother/father but I had to integrate and accept how each part had been used to create separation.

I needed to be able to see how amazing separation actually is, the ingenious way that judgements, vows, beliefs and agreements construct our reality to give us the illusion that we are separate.

Coming to terms with separation and it beauty allowed me to become more and more integrated within myself in all the dimensions. As I was no longer judging each aspect, separation ceased to occur. This is one of those very back to front levels of understanding that the more we accept something the more one we are with all things.

Every act of creation is one of separation it can be nothing less.

The stuckness we experience in Separation is created by our judgements, beliefs, vows, & agreements.  It is important to understand that most of these constructs are beyond the mind, between zero point and itself.  These are the things that operate in your life that you can’t seem to shift and clear and we expect our minds to deal with them not realising that we have to go beyond the mind to access and deal with them.

The constructs are often circular, and have our mind running around in loops when if it only stopped still and surrendered the issue back to source it would allow the space for healing/release to occur. I call these impossible tasks, because often the reason they loop around is because they are creating a loose/loose scenario that we fear to end from any direction.

Often healing is not successful because we are using our minds and it is only taking place on one level of the mind, physical body, or emotions beta, alpha and theta levels of consciousness.

It is rare we can access delta except in dream time, or go beyond the mind to zero and totally connect to the absolute to heal.

On embodying the understanding of myself as ONE I finally understood that in order to be one with all things we have to be all the divine incarnations, in fact all things all places, all beings, all events. From the space of oneness there is only the NOW in which all things are occurring simultaneously. It was in comprehending this that I also understood that whatever I was, whatever I was doing was part of that whole and only I could do it. Others were doing exactly what they were meant to do. THIS MEANS I COULDN’T DO ANYTHING WRONG – ONLY ACCEPT THE EXPERIENCE FOR WHAT IT WAS

I was able to finally hold this energy consciously in a more contiguous way, and to come to terms with my own divinity. This is still an ongoing project!

The cosmic pulse is a simple powerful and dynamic tool that has emerged out of the meditations and clearance of illusion.